It's 2:20 am ...

And the song "Airplane's" by B.o.B is still stuck in my head.
Specifically the part that Hayley Williams sings. It goes something like this:

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now."

Yep. Definitely doesn't help the matter that I can't sleep and wish with all my being that my boyfriend who lives half way around the world, would be next to me at this very instant.
God I even pray everyday for him. The more the days get closer to his "supposed" visit,
the more I feel like it won't happen. As if the biggest disappointment is yet to come.
Not mention after everything he did last year. God I still want to punch him in the balls for that.
The thing is. I love him. Yes, all you women out there would probably tell me I'm crazy and that I should dump his ass. That if you were in my shoes, that would be the first thing that would happen. Following a few blows to the face as well.

The truth is, you would do the same thing I am doing now. You want to know why? Because you would love him just as much as I do. I too used to say that same exact thing to those friends of mine (that I won't name), who's boyfriends or fiances' are such ass holes and with all my being I would ask them, "why are you with that bastard? Why!" And of course they reply, "because I love him."

Ugh! Ridiculous how we woman do that. I feel sorry for myself. How sad is that. Again though, it's, REALITY.

Until next time. Ciao.

-Realitee