The Beginning Of A Beautiful...Relationship

No, not an actual "relationship" just A relationship. Everyone has a relationship with someone whether they want to or not. Whether its your uncle or the neighbor next door. So, why am I talking about uncles and neighbors? Well, I have to say that I'm just mentioning that to make a point. A valid one of course. lol
Any who, the thing is, it's a brand new year and I think this year will be the beginning of a new stage in my life. Yes, I will be dealing with new things and experiences but I am so ready for it. So ready in fact, that I am willing to pee underneath a lifeguards watch tower in Santa Monica at 1 something in the morning. Yes, you just read what you think you read. That's not the point though. The point is that I can actually say, I have started off the year just how I've been wanting to for a long time. Getting great work outs, hanging out with an awesome guy until 2am, eating meat, taking booth pics while drinking Monster and of course shopping for new underwear! What is better than that? I don't know about you but new underwear is something to get excited about. Don't know why exactly my friends find it weird that I show them the new cute bras I buy. Oh well.
Thing is, the only down fall of my heart is, that it still fully belongs to one person. The one person who I wish and doesn't deserve that I feel anything AT ALL for. I am so done making a fool of myself. Better said BOOB. No not feeling like a breast, it actually means FOOL. You dirty minded people. Read a dictionary sometime.
Thing is he doesn't know what he wants. If he doesn't want to show me he wants me then why waist my time. Reality is, I can't wait forever, but will he be my exception?
On the other hand, I'm happy to be exploring the beginning of what might be a beautiful relationship before it is a REAL relationship. :]

Song of the week: "The Only Exception" by Paramore