So other than having the best weekend ever with my bestfriend, celebrating my 23rd birthday, I feel like shit right now. Yes I said shit.
Now why am I feeling like this after partying, getting an awesome new job and hanging with the family for my bday? Because as much as I want to forget I can't forget! I can't forget the bastard of my EX boyfriend! I like this new guy but as much as I like him I still love the bastard. Why is it so hard to forget the one who hurt you and so easy to feel hurt and alone? As much as I like this new guy I know we will have issues later on if we get together when it comes to being hours away from each other. I dont want to commit to another relationship that's long distance. I want someone so bad and at the same time I hate men! They are all the same.
Reality is, deep down inside, I just want to find love, I'm just hoping it doesn't find me.
Song of the week: "Jar of Hearts" by Christina Perri
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