What's Scarier Than A Scarecrow That Might Kill You?

I used to think that scarecrows, clowns, creepy porcelain dolls and haunted houses were scary until 24 hours ago. Your probably wondering how that is even possible. See the thing is that you shouldn't be scared of things that other humans have made you think you should be scared of what they think scary is...they don't know that what they have inside is what they should really be scared of. Yeah I bury my head in my pillow and when lucky, my guys chest in which case I'm holding on for dear life because I can't stand watching scary movies. Yes I'm a chicken when it comes to those dreadful films. Thing is that the thing you think is remotely impossibly not even close to being scary... is falling in love. You fall in love and as the days pass you fall even more and then you start to think...you think and you think. Then you think some more until you start to think the wrong things. What if he doesn't love me back? Should I tell him first? Is he just feeling pitty for me and that's why he's keeping me around? Am I being clingy? When will he say I don't want you anymore, this is not going to work? There have been so many times when I'm wondering...why me? There are moments when I realize I'm waiting to get disappointed. And even start to notice little things that suddenly bug me because I wish that he would hold my hand in public or hug me in public... at least once. It all connects and that's when it gets scary because you just don't know what is real. You get to the point where your having a bad day and your thinking, "God I need someone right now. Gee I'll text him and he will for sure make it all better." You smile at the thought of hope and then a half an hour to an hour pass and no answer. You start to think and think again and that's when the doubt comes. You desperately hope they will ask what's wrong so you can tell them and they can be there to comfort you in some way just like you have tried your best to comfort them, take care of them and help them. Instead you end up crying your self to sleep, in your car until 4 am only to get up at 6 am to go to work. Your scared that you might just not be what they want. Your scared that you will hear the words, "I don't want you." Reality is that your heart and your mind are the things that you should be terrified of.