I am that sweet girl that once I know how I feel for someone...someone worth giving my heart to ...I give my all. I give 100 percent. I give my 110 percent. I am that girl that dreams of having someone who can appreciate her and tell her how beautiful she is inside and out. That girl that no matter what the circumstances I can try to make the best of it. The one who will stick to their other half, if they had another half, no matter what.
Today is what I liked to call a day that came across as a trial in my "love" life. It was not what I expected at all and made me think about whether I want to pursue something that I desperately want to fight for but seems so so far away. I have fallen head over heels for someone who doesn't love me back and who is not sure of what they want. Yet they can't let me go. I am stuck debating whether I should keep on taking blows to my heart day after day and hope that one day he will want me to be only his and claim me for being my self. Or simply give up and not get reminded, in public, that I am not his. As much as I have forgiven him for his behavior, I realized that I experienced first hand what words can do and how much power they have. It has been a long time since I had experienced something that big and how words can do more damage than guns, knives or what ever physical device human kind has invented. As much as I want to forget, I keep seeing his face tell me the words that I are making me cry right now as I type this post. Today was suppose to have been perfect. Ironically it, ended on a good note yet with a gut feeling of major disappointment. I wish, I wish to use this post as a way to find what I should do. There is so much I can take and as much as I want to fight...I don't know how strong my heart is.
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