Moving On

So after of going through a week of hell...I've decided to stop crying over someone who wasted my time, money and emotion for nothing but betrayal and lies. I'm clearly still not over him unfortunately but I want to be. I'll always have a part of him trapped inside my heart but I want him out of my life and mind. Why mind? Because with out consciously realizing it, he is there in my mind, reminding me of all the great times we had and how much I love him. Which makes me angry because I wasted a year of my life hoping that he would love me back while hearing lie after lie of how "amazing" I am or how he "cared" and saw us heading in a good direction. Bull S***. As hilarious as that may randomly sound to you...especially out loud, it is true. I have decided that as much as it hurts I am going to move on and not cry anymore. He doesn't deserve my tears and crying is not going to make me go back in time and choose to not have met him at the beach that day. But I did. And now, I find someone who I find interesting, someone who treats me like a human being. Someone who I know is not playing games. I am going to hope for the best and try to not be an idiot again.