One of those days...

Ever had one of those days, when you are feeling good but you suddenly start to remember things that a few months ago made you happy but now they just make you angry and sad at the same time? Ever had one of those days where you question if what is making you happy now will always be making you happy or if it's too good to be true? Do you ever wonder whether your heart could possibly give out from so much pain and ache? Could it possibly be falling to pieces with out you knowing it? Is it alright to feel like you will never find that person who will not hurt you and lie to you? Will it always be happy and dandy like it is now? Or will it start to go away leaving you completely damaged and possibly no heart? You start to picture what you would do and say if suddenly that one person who scarred you were to appear out of the blue. Would you run? Would you ignore them? Would you talk to them? Would you sock them in the face and then kick them when they're down? Or would you simply just stare at them from across the room and let them know through your gaze the damage they have done? A short montage of different scenarios play at 100 mph in your head and you find your self gasping, except it seems normal to those around you because you happen to be at the gym on the treadmill or elliptical. Then you start thinking of the things you are now and how much better you are now that they are not in your life. What would they think of you now? Would they or do they regret not being with you now? As soon as that thought pops into your head, you flash forward and remember how much you suddenly miss this new person in your life and how special they make you feel. How much hope you suddenly have at being happy for the first time in a long time. They are not embarrassed of you and hold you with out any care in the world. You start to feel guilty but yet shake it off knowing that this new person who loves the same things you do, has fun with you and wants to see you is the same person who has your complete attention now and that is the reality of the situation. That no matter what that other piece of vermin did, it won't stop you from moving on and being happy.