Dear babe,
I know this whole you living two hours away from me is hard for you as it is for me. I'm sorry I am not strong enough to not cry when I say goodbye to you every Sunday night, or when we sometimes talk on the phone for a bit. I just hate the thought of having to say bye to you every weekend. Being with you makes me so happy, almost as if I'm in a dream. And every time I leave I feel like I'm waking up, and facing reality. I guess I'm just scared that you'll forget about me, or that you wont miss me as much as I miss you. Then again, I think about how it could be worse. How you could be a state away or even worse, a country away. I promise I'll try to be stronger for you babe, doesn't mean I won't miss you like I do now, I'll just try to not let it get to me as much. I know it's not your fault that you had to move, it's something that you need to do. And I want you to accomplish your dreams and goals. And if it means you have to be far away from me, and that I'll shed a tear here and there because I miss you, I'll take it any time. Because I love you, so much. I don't ever want you to feel like you are asking too much from me, or that I will get tired of this. I know it's going to be hard and it might get harder, because I won't get to talk to you or skype with you as much as I would like to, but I know its necessary. I don't want you having bad feelings about anything babe. And I'm sorry that I even allowed you to feel that way. Just know, I will always try to make things right if I mess up. I love you. And yes I am suppose to be asleep right now and not worrying but I couldn't sleep since I had all of this inside of me. I want you to know what is inside my head and heart whenever I can share it. Especially if my heart is yours.
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